March 2010

Mahina ako.

Totoo yan.

Mahina ako laban sa tukso.

Pero pinipilit ko naman magpakatatag.

Pinipilit kong lumaban. Lumaban sa tawag ng laman.

Kaya ko.

Kaya ko sana... kaso...
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Pag-open ko ng facebook ko kanina, may naka-tag na picture sa akin from my friend Zue:

Tapos, nakita ko pa ito on one of my favorite food blogs, marketmanila.com:

Diyosko, nanghihina ang tuhod ko. Feeling ko ako ang nililitson.

Hey Bookie,

It was just today that I came to thoroughly read your blog. I've known this once through a team mate but maybe because I was so OC with service, I've missed the good things but I'm glad that I've found it through Google using "gay blog" as keywords.

I've been an agent for Exp Service for a year and a half. One of Zue Anne's agents. You'll get an idea out of this small bits of info I guess. I've known you once as the big happy guy on the floor that I wish you were once my SUP but glad anyway that Zue Anne has been so good to me during my stay. PS was the longest company I've ever worked with and when I left in June 2009, I never looked back at the BPO industry again, ever.

I never would have left PS if not because of the power tripping QA I've had during the last few months of my stay. I've been a top agent several times but never got my reward. I wouldn't disclose too much but to tell you, it has been tormenting and utterly traumatic for me leaving the company I used to love just because of some outrageously ambitious brat who spoiled my days and some helpless SUP that doesn't know how to fight for his agent and a ludicrous newbie TM (then).

Bookie, if a person is performing well in their job, would you even think that they're not happy with it? There are those bad calls and bad days but I think they are just normal. The management sees it differently and cling to the wrong side. I guess being a top agent on a team or even on the entire account is not even worth it. Well, that was long gone and I've managed to move on. I've been blogging for more than a year and was earning dollars from it. In fact, I've even ventured into the web hosting biz on a startup just in case you would want to get a self-hosted blog.

Reading from the past entries on your blog is enjoyable yet it makes me sad. I even saw a lot of faces I'm familiar and mingled with which drew me back to reminiscin' the good ol' days. Thanks for being a keen observer.

This is getting a little bit boring so I'm cutting this one short.

Peace out,
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Ex-agent HomeAlone

Hey Ex-agent HomeAlone,

I think I kinda remember who you are. The first thing I did when I read your email was message Zue Anne, who's in the States right now. She has an inkling of who you might be, but then again, both of us aren't that sure.

Anyway, a power-tripping QA analyst? A helpless supervisor? Hmmm... Marami akong kilalang helpless na supervisor, pero the power-tripping QA? Dehins ko knows kung sino yan. Although merong isang naka-braces na QA dati na alam kong hate ng karamihan sa mga agents sa floor, kaso she left na. Sa Service to ha, hindi sa sales, mind you. Okay ako sa lahat ng Sales QA's, hehehe. Ipasa mo naman ako kahit paminsan, please please please, Apple.

Alam mo, totoo yan madalas, kung sino ang hard-working sa opisina, sila pa ang agrabyado. At yung mga tamad naman pero malakas sa management ang nakikinabang.

Pero hindi naman lagi. Siguro depende na rin lang sa manager. Or sa supervisor. Aminin man natin or hindi, may pamumulitika talaga sa opisina natin. Di naman maiiwasan yan eh. I'm sure kahit sa mga trabahador ng Burger Machine meron ding complex system ng pamumulitika.

In regards to passing your QA score, I should be the last person to give advise on this. Parang richter scale ang QA scores ko. Taas-baba. Madalas nasa baba. Bakit naman kasi ang hirap tandaan na dapat mag-offer ka pa ng upsell kahit na resolve mo na yung issue ng incompetent customer mo eh?

Ang iniisip ko na lang, kung alam kong maayos naman ang trabaho ko, at wala akong ginagawang masama, wala na akong pakialam kung ano pa ang sabihin ng iba tungkol sa akin. Fuck 'em all, right?

Love, lust, and lechon,
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bookie♥
[email protected]

p.s. Kumikita ka sa pag-bo-blog? Inggit ako. Wish ko lang may pera din akong nakukuha sa pagsusulat. Or may magbigay sa akin ng laptop para naman di na lang lagi sa Netopia ako nag-bo-blog.

xoxo

I was browsing old photo albums of mine in Facebook and found some pics I wanted to share with you.

You see, last year, my friends and I decided to take a tour of old Manila, starting with a trip to Binondo and Ongpin.

At siyempre pa, may theme dapat ang outfits namin: Purple and Pink!

We started of sa mga famous purple firetrucks sa Binondo.

And then we had a really good (and really cheap) lunch sa Wai Ying sa Ongpin.

We then went to Intramuros...

...where we also had our pictures taken with an authentic guardia civil.

Tapos nagpunta kami sa Wow! Philippines.

We took a lot of pictures everywhere that day.

I edited one of them. Take a look:

Like it?

I love using picnik.com to edit pictures.

Take a look at some of my other edited pictures:

"Kaya pumutok ang appendix mo, kasi bakla ka," ang explanation ni Ina Magenta.

I was having an early breakfast in North Park in Makati Avenue with Schoolboi, Pasha, and, of course, ang always-happy-keps na si Ina Magenta. We call ourselves The Fallopian Friday Friends.

"Excuse me?" tanong ko sa kaniya, habang nginunguya ang fried bean curd na in-order ko. Ito lang ang naisip ko na hindi masyadong fattening sa North Park.

I love North Park's food pero seryoso na talaga ako sa diet ko. As God is my witness, sesexy rin ako at magiging balingkinitan. Tapos magkakaroon ako ng poging boyfriend na mestizo, marunong kumanta't magluto, at may sariling kotse.

Anyway, mabalik tayo sa kaibigan kong si Ina Magenta.

"Simple lang," ang patuloy na sagot niya, "Makasalanan ang buhay niyong mga bakla kaya pinaparusahan ka ni Baby Jesus. Pinaputok niya ang appendix mo para matuto ka nang makipag-relasyon sa babae."

Nagkatinginan kami nina Pasha and Schoolboi.

"Crazy bitch," sabi ni Pasha.

"She's kidding," sabi ni Schoolboi.

"Nalaglag sa kuna siguro yan nung baby pa siya," suhestiyon ko naman.

"We could also look at it from a different perspective, baka naman pinagbibigyan ka na ni Baby Jesus," sabi pa ni Ina Magenta, "I mean, at least now natupad na rin ang matagal mo nang pangarap na magkaroon ng sariling hiwa? Oh di ayan, you're on your way to being a natural woman!"

Binato ko siya ng wanton chips habang tawa ng tawa sina Pasha at Schoolboi.

Apparently, "open relationship" na silang dalawa, which means they're kinda together, but free to fuck around with others.

Haaay. Mga kabataan nga naman ngayon. Kunsabagay, kung kamukha ko siguro si Pasha, malamang promiscuous na rin ako.

I didn't think it was possible pero mas lalo yatang naging hot si Pasha. His body is more muscular and toned dahil nahilig na raw siya sa capoeira.

Si Schoolboi naman, medyo tumaba pero pogi pa rin.

"Is that really the only dish you're eating?" asked Schoolboi.

I nodded, "Takot na akong kumain ng marami eh. Since nasimulan ko na ang weight loss sa hospital, I might as well keep at it."

Pasha said eagerly, "That's good! You should join me sa capoeira classes ko. Masaya siya, swear. Plus, hotties galore!"

"I don't think keri ko ang capoeira," sabi ko.

"Ang ibig mong sabihin, di mo ma-keri ang katawan mo sa capoeira, baka madaganan mo pa si Pasha," ang singit naman ni Ina Magenta.

"Pekpek mo tabingi," bulong ko.

"Ano kamo?" tanong niya.

"Sabi ko paabot ng chili sauce."

"I think you can eat lots of food naman eh, it's just that dapat sabayan mo rin ng maraming workout," suggestion ni Schoolboi, "If you want, isama kita sa gym ko sa Glorietta, you can get in free so we can work out together."

Medyo namula ako dahil medyo bastos ang naisip kong workout na gusto kong gawin namin ni Schoolboi.

"Wag ka na magpapayat, ok naman itsura mo eh," sabat ni Ina Magenta.

"Wow, is that a compliment?" tanong ko.

"No, just an observation," sabi niya, "Di ka naman katulad nung ibang mataba na madugyot tignan eh. Ilong lang naman ang problema sa mukha mo eh. Other than that, you look fine."

"Thanks... I think," mahina kong sagot.

"Ano bang weight mo ngayon?" asked Pasha.

"275lbs ako nung pumasok ng Manila Doctors," sabi ko, "Paglabas ko, 268lbs na lang ako. That was in a week, ha."

"Para ka lang nanganak!" sabi ni Ina Magenta, "Siguro, pag pinabawasan mo ang ilong mo, mas lalo kang gagaan!"

Tangina talaga tong lintek na babaeng to.

The pain I feel in my stomach is nothing compared to what you are going through right now, Beks.

I hope and pray that you get better.

These recent events have again reminded me how fragile life is and how important it is to have a family to take care of you.

Sabi nga ng isang friend ko, “Other things may change us, but we start and end with family.”

Which is why I would like to take this opportunity to thank four people who've really helped me during my hospitalization.

Clang and Ed, thanks for taking care of all the paperwork and the food. Words cannot describe how grateful I am.

Renz, thanks for being my "private nurse" from Day 1. Astig ka, you never left my bedside, nagawa mong tiisin ang kaartehan ko sa hospital bed. I am forever in your debt.
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And lastly, to my brother, Eric, just when I thought I was without a family, you came through for me. Thanks for the help. Alam mo na yun. Salamat salamat salamat.