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I Give Up!

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"Suko na ako," I said to The Kid, habang naka-upo sa station ko, nakamulagat sa monitor.

"Suko saan?" asked The Kid, nagdodocument ng call niya.

"Suko na ako sa love," sagot ko.

"What do you mean?" asked The Kid.

"I mean, ganun na lang ba ako palagi? Lagi na lang ba akong ma-i-inlove sa taong hindi naman pwede ma-inlove sa akin?" sagot ko.

"Hmmm... I can relate. It's just that, in my case, mas marami pa akong opportunities kasi I'm still young," sagot ng The Kid.

Natahimik ako, and then sabi ko, "Wait, did you just call me old?"

Natawa na lang ang The Kid.

"I swear, this year, magmamahal na ako ng taong alam kong may chance na mahalin din ako. Hindi ko na mamahalin yung mga pa-fall, mga pa-flirt, at yung mga pa-habol," pag-explain ko, with matching nginig ng mga pisngi at bilbil, "Someone out there is going to love me whether they like it or not, goddamnit."

He better be ready.

Posted by callboi 18:34 Archived in Philippines Tagged gay_travel

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We have the same predicament, Bookie.

I recently had a break-up from a very young relationship [going 2mos] at the start of the year and I realized two things: I'm way better off unattached, for now, to say the least; and if I were to find a person for me, dapat yung MAS mamahalin ako. Ewan ko ba! Hindi kasi ako nakakatagal sa isang relasyon, 3 mos being the longest at that and I think it's really me na may problema. Buti na lang anjan si chubbycutie Renz na pinagseselosan ko nang very light kasi palagi mo siya kasama. Hahahah!!!

Happy New Year!

by chekwa28

Haaay bookie... exactly my same sentimemnts... pagpasok pa lng ng 2010 eh heartache kaagad ang tumambad sa akin... kaya ako... di na ulit muna maghahanap... mas mahal ko ang sarili ko kaya mamahalin ko na lang muna ang aking sarili ng lubos lubos... miss you bookie..

by NYBadette

Kaya nga c BIM toothpaste na lng diba....

by ineng_roma22

Cheers to that! this is your year Bookie!

by DHON

hmmm i knew it.

by Q_Amidala

@Q_Amidala: Wag kang assuming. :)

by callboi

Bukee,,, am not,,, i just know for a fact,,,=P

by Q_Amidala

go bookie!
i know yu' be happy soon!
hmm expect the unexpected :)

by freak_me

Chekwa28? Curious with what you said. Is it something that you really predict prior perhaps? Like, something "subconscious"? That even if you badly wanted the relationship it ended up after few months? Is it because you somehow you wanted to know what's the "end" of the story be like before it even starts? Just a thought, I maybe wrong and need to know the whole story first.. =)

by snellbaby

PS:
Callboi: Did you really fall in love with them all? Or in love with the idea of "love"?

by snellbaby

haaay ----> nakaka relate lng hehehehe

by missindia

tama kay BIM toothpaste ka nalang!!! suporatahan ko kayo girl...
anyway,makikisimpatya ako jan sabi nga ng best friend ko lahat na meron ako, ok na wok, kagandahan, alindog,anak, kaibigan, kasosyalan pero sa lovelife sablay tlga ko...well yoko ng isipin pa..inom nalng tayo lika na hahhaa cheers happy new year!!!

by kitchie

callboi,

i have given up so many times before. and yet, i am again in a relationship where i honestly don't know if the other person will love me as much.

i have been reading yout blog for quite sometime now and i really enjoy reading your entries...

it is so hard for us (i'm gay as well) to look for that person, i honestlty am wondering because the recent increase in our number should give us more opportunities.

it is really hard to keep on hoping and looking for that other person (i have done the leg work) and it really pains me that someone as talented as you and i (sali ko na sarili ko) are having difficulties in this area.

i'll settle with what i have right now. hoping and praying that he will love me as much as i need him to.

keep on loving callboi, pasasaan ba at makakahanap din tayo ng magmamahal sa atin. at sana, soon.

by eko

@Eko: Amen Amen!

by callboi

dami babae sa bar, ayoko na nga eh LOL
ngayon kasing ayoko makipagrelasyon biglang andami namang babae...

magiging ganun ka din bookie, magugulat ka na lang one day at magugulat sa dami nila... ikaw pa mahihirapan pumili or masasawa ka na hehe...2009 was great for me kasi puro walang kwentang pagibig inatupag ko nung beginning ng year tapos nung wala na silang lahat gumanda at umayos ang buhay ko at work... everything will be alright bookie, madami silang mahuhumaling sayo, they just don't know it yet...

by kumagcow

winner!!!Ü good luck bookie..2010 ang year mo..nafefeel ko yan..Ü love and be loved!!!amen!!!

by teen

natawa lang ako sa usapan... takbo palang ng convo alam ko na kung sino si "The Kid" BWAHAHA!

Dibale Bookie, darating din sya. Sabi nga nila ang TRUE LOVE di hinahanap, kusang dumarating. Hihi!

by juliepot

julipot wag ka maingay, hahaha!!!, gulat na nga lang ako naka enrty na pala usapan nila, hahaha!!!

by Nasa Tabi Mo Nakikinig

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