Resolutions...

1215AM, January 6, 2009:

Habang naka-upo ako sa harap ng pc ko kanina, bigla kong na-realize na anniversary nga pala namin ng batch ko dito sa Peoplesupport.

Six years na akong nagtatrabaho dito.

Six years.

Six freaking years.

All of a sudden, I feel so old.

Biro niyo, 22 years old ako nung mag-simula akong magtrabaho dito, and now, I am 28.

Six years. Huwaw.

Pagkatapos ng anim na taon, nasaan na ba ako?

A lot of things have happened to me here.

I've fallen in love about seven times in six years.

I've made friends and lost friends.

I've been an agent, a supervisor, nagbalik sa pagiging agent, and now... a trainer (Peer trainer ka lang! bulong ng katabi ko. Sabi ko naman, Proud ako! Peer trainer po! Sabay taas noo and ismid).

Six years. Grabe.

This is my first job, you know?

I've learned quite a lot. Especially since nung lumayas ako sa bahay namin about four years ago. And never looked back.

Technically, I'm an orphan. Kapag holidays, nagpapa-adopt ako sa mga friends ko. Dun ako sa bahay nila naghoholiday. Although I don't regret separating from my family, I do miss them terribly. Every single day. I dream about them almost every night. Especially si Inday, my yaya.

Why don't I go home?

Sabi ng isang fellow trainer ko, "Ma-pride ka kasi, Buquir."

Sabi naman ni Jennifer Lopez, "All my pride is all I have."

Sabi nung isang baklang kalbo na madalas magpa-rinig sa akin sa floor, "Ano ba ipagmamalaki niya eh ang taba naman niya!".

And take note, I have done nothing to this guy. I swear to God. Ganyan lang talaga siguro siya.

Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa kaniya, "At least hindi ako mukhang matandang baklang prostitute." But I didn't. That would be wrong. Mukha lang akong baboy, pero hindi ako ugaling baboy, at least I don't think I am.

Maybe, ma-pride nga ako. Is that the same as being mayabang?

Coz I don't think mayabang ako.

Not intentionally, anyway. But I'm sure some people will disagree. Well, you can't please everyone.

I'm not asking for your reassurance, folks. I'm just thinking out loud.

Dati, in the early stages of this blog of mine, madalas akong magsulat ng ganito. Mga kadramahan about myself.

Kaso, nung medyo sumikat na ito, I decided to focus entirely on comedic writing.

Ngayon lang ako uli nakapagsulat ng ganito.

It's kind of a relief, actually.

Six years.

And what do I have to show for it?

I have friends. Of course, I have lost some, but hey, that's life, and right now, one of my new year's resolutions is to keep what I have close to my heart. The ones I've lost, well, have a good life na lang. It's really not in my nature to make amends. In my defense, I loved you all. Kaso pag goodbye, goodbye talaga.

Six years sa Peoplesupport.

Now that I think about it, it doesn't seem like such a long time, really.

Parang ang bilis nga eh.

I can't wait for the next six.