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A friend of mine is leaving this company soon. He’s a close friend of mine. He’s leaving for greener pastures. And he did something that I have been dreading for the longest time: He gave me an option to also leave.

Don’t get me wrong; I don’t dread the fact that he asked me to do as he did, leave my job for a supposedly better one. What I dread is the fact that I would really be tempted to do as he did: Leave my comfort zone.

I don’t hate my job, not entirely anyway. I’ve stayed here just because I’ve made great friends here. Being without a family, they’ve filled a hole in my heart that I seldom acknowledge.

But as Meja has insistenly sung over the years, “it’s all about the money.” It’s sad to think that I am easily lured just because of financial reasons. But hey, let’s be realistic, right? I have to be smart. The chance of a higher position with a way higher salary is just too good to pass.

Then why am I so hesitant? I guess I’m scared.

You see, this is my first job. A lot has happened to me in this company. A lot of bad things, a lot of good things, and a handful of spectacular ones.

I’m scared that if I do apply and get hired, I might not like the working environment there. Or that I might not cut it in the position given to me. What if I screw up and get fired?

But then again, what if all my worries are for naught? What if this opportunity is the one I’ve been waiting for? I really don’t know the answer yet.

I’ve had a lot of screw-ups in this company. And yet, I can honestly say that I’m still having the time of my life here. My friends make it all worthwhile.

I am reminded of a line in Conan O’brien’s commencement speech for Harvard’s class of 2000, wherein he was referring to making big decisions in life and leaving places you were comfortable in:

“I left the cocoon of Harvard, I left the cocoon of Saturday Night Live, I left the cocoon of The Simpsons. And each time it was bruising and tumultuous. And yet, every failure was freeing, and today I'm as nostalgic for the bad as I am for the good.”

As of this point, I don’t know what I’m going to do if I do get accepted. Life here in PS is relatively secure, but is job security really what I'm all about? Pakshet, I really don’t know.

Posted by callboi 08:46 Archived in Philippines Tagged gay_travel

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ayy... friend... kung ano man ang magiging disisyon mo... we're just here... youre friends... sana magkita-kita pa rin tayo kahit wala na ako dito. I'm sure it will happen.

by parteeboi

Hi callboi! I actually signed up here so i can post a comment in your sooooo soooo...cutie bloggie! nakarelate ako sa crossroads mo. that is waht im exactly experiencing right now...geezz..it's so hirap pag me fears and all...tsk!

by frustr8d

no matter what path you'll choose, i'm behind you 100 %. good luck, marse!

by honeybfly

you dont need to be scared with new things in life. Changes are part of it, learn to spread your wings into a different field. you mignt not know you'll excel better with the new job that you have. Your friends will still be your friends anyway. Explore life!

by cokefloat

sikat mo na fren!!! Kahit san ka mapunta... anjan sina honeybfly, cokefloat and frustr8d for you... ayy...

by parteeboi

my roommate brought home a copy of the alchemist, a book i always thought i would never have the drive to read. i mean brazilians are hot, but i just wasn't feeling it. but days went by and i found myself reading it page by page. last night i couldn't sleep, and i ended up eating a week-old brownie. and i accidentally finished reading the book.

well, my point is (i presume you've read the book) although Santiago had a final beating after leaving his sheep (comfort zone) a long time ago, he found his treasure in the end.

i'm thinking of leaving too. because this is not a happy place to be anymore.

i wanna eat sinigang na corned beef.

by etheREAL

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