Jango San Roque and I were having lunch at The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf from across our building.
Malaki ang problema ng lolo niyo. In love siya with a friend. And he's scared that if he makes a move, and the guy does not reciprocate whatever feelings he shows, the friendship would be lost.
"I dunno, but I think you should risk everything and just tell him," I offered, as I sipped my hot vanilla drink, "if you really love him, that is."
Jango brushed back his bangs, "That's the thing. I'm not sure if I do. I'm not sure if it's just lust or love that's going on between the two of us."
Yan ang problema sa aming mga bakla. Madalas, we often confuse hot erotic steamy pumping sweaty lust with sweet caring heart-warming and ultimately adorable love.
"Have you done it with him?" I asked.
He took a bite from my Chicago Cheesecake before answering, "We almost did it. Twice nang muntik na may mangyari pero di namin matuloy. The second time, I was the one who initiated it, it even got to the part where he actually had taken off my pants and was searching for some lube when I decided that it was wrong and stopped it from there."
I pondered on what he said, "Have you said "i love you" to each other?"
"Yeah, we have, pero I don't know if he means it the same way I do," Jango replied.
"So you have no idea how he feels about you?" I asked.
"I really don't," he said, "tapos eto pa; for the past couple of weeks, he has often been sleeping at his ex's."
"So, malamang nag-ju-juer sila," I replied.
Jango looked sad, "Ano pa nga ba?"
"Are you sure this isn't one of those things na by next week eh over ka na sa kaniya, coz you know I've seen this happen before with you?" I asked Jango, dubiously.
He laughed, "Yun nga eh! Alam mo, pag di ko siya nakikita, sobrang namimiss ko siya. Pag nagtext siya sa akin ng sweet, tuwang-tuwa ako. Pero di ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang meron sa amin."
"Marse, di ko rin alam eh, I've only seen him once, and I couldn't read any of his body language towards you," I told him.
"Do you think I should tell him?" Jango asked me, "tell him how I feel?"
I was quiet for a few seconds, "I want to say yes, but I'm scared na baka masaktan ka in the end. Pero I really want to say yes."
Jango smiled and sort of shrugged as he lay back on his easy chair, "Haaay. Miss ko na siya."
If I were in Jango's place, malamang inamin ko sa mahal ko. Pero I don't think kaya kong aminin kay Chong or kay Clover Chips na I kinda somewhat sort of really really like them.
Like I said awhile ago, takot ako eh.